Those engaged in the healing process will recognise the frustration of knowing you have worked hard on your growth but are yet to see tangible results, or have worked hard only to have to dig even deeper.
I’ve noticed that the deeper I go with healing my own emotional wounds and those of my ancestors, I feel the benefits in terms of lightness and a sense of freedom.
I did not realise that this sense of freedom was what I had been striving for until it arrived.
Freedom is defined by the Merriam-Webster dictionary as:
1: the quality or state of being free: such as
a: the absence of necessity, coercion, or constraint in choice or action
b: liberation from slavery or restraint or from the power of another : INDEPENDENCE
c: the quality or state of being exempt or released usually from something onerous freedom from care
d: unrestricted use gave him the freedom of their home
e: EASE, FACILITY spoke the language with freedom
f: the quality of being frank, open, or outspoken answered with freedom
g: improper familiarity
h: boldness of conception or execution
2a: a political right
Since I was a child, I have had a fear of being wrongfully imprisoned. (I think this fear came from accidentally watching a scary prison movie when I was about 8!)
To the present day, I have a fascination with death-row documentaries, it interests me what happens to people when they have nothing but time to reflect on their lives.
I am not sure if anyone of us is born truly free, we are born into the constraints of whatever society we find ourselves in, in the shadow of what came for those before us – even if we have always had the privilege of being physically free.
We are born with the potential to be on lock-down at some point, even if that lock-down is just of our own emotions, needs, wishes, wants.
Freedom is the capacity to live your life fully integrated, your past, your present, your future all in alignment. Your mistakes, your wins…all of you in acceptance.
This is what committing to my healing has done for me, it has shown me what true freedom is.
Much love Txx