I Am Not The Same

So I have been struggling with what to write to you, my dear readers, for quite some time.

I have communicated to you largely through poetry, and cooking posts for a number of weeks.

This is because there is really only one thing I need to write about, but I have hesitated due to what I now understand is fear.

Fear of declaring my truth again, and what that may mean going forwards in my life.

Because once I have reached the place of writing it on this blog I am ready to live by it.

It is simple:

I am not the same person I was last month, three months ago, last year.

It feels so natural to me that it has taken me a while to notice.

Others have been telling me how much I have changed for a number of years now, and I did not really understand their observations.

It is only in the last 6 months that I find myself unrecognisable.

I like to think that I have just simply grown up.

It almost feels like I had one life, and now I am about to have a different one.

This has affected the way that I work with energy.

My intuition has become so painfully strong that I see many around me for who they truly are, and it hurts.

I see how I have been used to make others feel better about themselves and to provide support.

I see how few want to know me.

I also see those that do, and how uncomfortable that feels after so much of the opposite.

What is even more bizarre, is that all of this is being seen as if I am in a car, peering back through the rearview mirror at the life I have left behind.

I am in a totally new and different place in my life already.

I’ve turned that corner.

I’ve started anew.

I’ve had years of accelerated motion, and as the world came to a slowdown, I noticed that I am not the same person I used to be.

I am not the same.

I admit it – I’ve changed.

But that’s it.

I cannot continue to live with one foot on the gas pedal and one eye glancing backwards.

This shift in energy will be showing up in your life also.

For all of us, many things have ended and new is just beginning.

As humans it is hard to truly surrender to the path forward.

It is natural to keep looking back at the life we are leaving behind, illustrated perfectly by the Biblical story of Lot’s wife.

Just like Lot’s wife, if we look back at what we must leave, we face the risk of being frozen in time.

So acknowledge it.

Say it to yourself:

I am not the same.

Much love Txx

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