I am currently recovering from a breast lumpectomy and sentinel lymph node biopsy.

I’d never had surgery before, or a general anaesthetic, and let me tell you – I was freaking out in the week leading up to it!

When I first got diagnosed with breast cancer (4 weeks ago), I spoke to my psychic circle.

Nicole, the lady who runs it, reassured me of all their support.

She gently mentioned that some of this journey I will have to walk alone.

Surgery was one such step.

Friends and family have rallied around me these few weeks and I have the physical support of my sister whilst I recover.

However what took place on the operating table was experienced by me alone.

Entering the main hospital building that day I faced the unknown.

Due to covid-19 restrictions, I was not able to have anyone wait with me, or come to the ward after surgery had taken place.

I was alone with my thoughts, alone with what an experience like this can teach.

I’ve been through a lot to become the woman I am today.

This experience feels like a true initiation into who I will become.

Facing my fear of surgery was a deeply trying time.

One friend in particular held my fear and uncertainty as if it were valuable treasure.

He reads this blog and so this post is dedicated to him.

Thank you (you know who you are), and all my friends, family and readers who accompanied me into that operating theatre with your love and prayers.

Much love Txx