I have been meaning to write a post on here for a while.
In the last couple of days especially, my mind has been coming up with little phrases here and there.
During a reiki session I received a gentle nudge that yes, it is time to write.
Sometimes what stops me writing is my desire to instruct and teach with my words.
I don’t always feel up to this.
Sometimes I shy away from expressing my feelings if they are too jumbled.
Today I am going to throw those worries out the window and just speak to you.
How does that sound?
Are you ready?
Currently I am musing over how much we have the capacity to change, to heal and to grow.
I look at my scars from surgery and marvel at how well they have healed!
So it feels limitless how many second chances we are given.
It’s not having nine lives, but rather having those nine lives all in one life.
I have started over in many ways, many times.
I have ended relationships and started new ones.
I have changed jobs and cities.
I have changed who I am by changing what I expect.
My recent diagnosis came in and changed me.
I lost perceived control over my life in the moment the doctor told me.
I say perceived control, because I suddenly understood that no matter what agency I had over my life, how much I manifested and worked towards – something higher than me was already in charge and one step ahead of me.
That was both a humbling and liberating realisation.
Coupled with staring my own mortality in the face, I knew that again – I was forever changed.
I am a woman of faith, yet I have never been able to shake the belief that I am in control of my destiny in a major way.
This experience has taught me that really I have very little control of my destiny, but that the Universe will never tire of giving me second chances and opportunities to operate my free will.
So today, I feel as though I have been given a miracoulous second chance.
A chance to use all that I have learnt about life up until this point, to start living my life in a way even truer to who I am.
A second chance with the knowing that it is a second chance.
Because that is what this is – a clean slate.
Our capacity to heal has shown me our capacity to have multiple lives within this one life.
As long as we continue to breathe, we continue to create a life closer to our soul’s intention.
Much love Txx