So I am going away today for an extra long weekend where I plan to unplug as much as possible.
I just want to be in the moment, and enjoy the company of the friends I am going to see.
This is the last ‘proper’ little break away that I have planned for a while, and I really want to enjoy it.
It won’t be long after, that I return to work, and will be caught up in the busy start of Semester at the American University I work in.
(I have a very long break planned over Christmas that I will tell you about soon.)
Breaks for me are utterly integral to my life.
Though I don’t travel abroad that much, I regularly take time out for myself away from London.
One of the reasons I do this is to detach myself from the energy of others.
Growing up in a large family of 9 children in total, time to myself was not really a thing I experienced.
Coupled with a social life, work, and study – I increasingly felt overwhelming desires to simply get away from my regular life, and be on my own.
This manifested in going on meditation retreats at least once a year for the last 4 years or so.
I also began to take the odd one night break away entirely on my own. (Often in secret!)
Though I will be spending time with friends on this break, simply being out of my home city makes me feel calmer.
This is because I am EXTREMELY sensitive to the energies of others and the energy that is sometimes projected on to me.
Now I can view this sensitivity through the lens of my intuitive, psychic, and mediumship abilities.
This does not make it any easier however.
I now know how to protect my energy, however there are periods of time where I find it a struggle to be around others.
At the moment for various reasons that I will go into in later posts, the energy of people around me is reaching a crescendo of sorts, and as a lightworker, this energy is almost being thrown at me like a weapon.
What comes with the territory of being a lightworker and regularly doing healing work, is that I serve as a beacon for others, and I attract a lot of attention to me.
Most of the time this is wonderful 🙂
People talk to me wherever I go, on the tube, on buses, in the supermarket.
Sometimes however, being a beacon can attract the ‘wrong’ type of attention.
It can attract jealously, and even anger, on a level that is sometimes only energetic, but that I can feel strongly.
Living my life authentically has made me shine just that little bit brighter, and with that it sometimes feels as though I have become a target for those that are not.
This is a pretty hard subject to talk about.
Though all of us can certainly admit to occasionally feeling envy towards another, we somehow find it more uncomfortable to discuss when we are the ones that others are envious of.
It makes us feel arrogant somehow.
I have learnt over recent years that I serve as a bit of a ‘trigger’ for some, simply by being who I am.
So occasionally I simply switch off.
This weekend will be one where I allow the energy of those I trust to help me recharge.
I also want to thank you, (yes you!) who read this blog for the beautiful, loving and uplifting energy you send my way on the regular, I can feel it 🙂
Thank you for your words and feelings of appreciation.
We are on this healing journey together.
Much love always Txx